19th
twenty-four
i should be on break. but alas, i still have just under a month left. twenty-four days to be exact. including weekends. i like it here, i mean the people are good and the classes are tolerable. it’s just that i’m ready to go home and see my people. you, him, and maybe a select few. i sound so bitchy saying that, “a select few”, like i’m some hierarchical being and only choose to hang out with certain people. that’s not it at all though. i really do/did like being with that giant group of people and had some really good times. but is it wrong for me to not want to be with people who talk about themselves 24/7? i feel selfish for saying that and i’m not implying that i want the topic of discussion to be on me, but is it really necessary for the subject to always be your life? to be quite honest, i don’t give a shit about your new boyfriend or who you made out with when you were “drunk”. honestly, i never did and probably never will. i hate to say it, but you(them) made me this bitter. so really, you have no one to blame but yourself if you have a problem with how i react to your childish antics. and by “childish antics” i really mean “shitty, fake friendliness”. all those times where i put everything aside to be there for each and every one of them, all the effort: gone. i should probably be way more bummed than i am, but honestly, i’ve moved onto bigger and better things. forgetting the fakes and staying with the trues is where i want to be. if that makes me a salty bitch, well then get me a name tag. i’ll wear it with pride. at least it’ll be real.
currently loving:warm weather, good music, the anticipation of all of our summer plans, and that extra twenty-four days to not have to deal with them.
currently hating:no visitors, illnesses, and that extra twenty-four days i have to wait before i can fully enjoy said warm weather with you.
